Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Dear Mama,

How are you today?  Anything exciting?  Not too much going on over here.  I worked out this morning & feel accomplished that I can even stay on the eliptical thing for more than 20 minutes...I stayed on for 35 minutes today.  YAY!!

So much is going on right now.  I'm feeling somewhat overwhelmed, but I know that it will all come together beautifully.  Saturday is Mai Kahiki Mai.  I can't believe it's here already.  I'm ready for it to be here already, because it will be too late to start over & we won't be able to have any do-overs.  I'm in charge of decorations & am excited to see what's been in my head come to life on the stage.  I hope that it all goes smoothly.  Everyone has been working so hard at getting their areas prepared & also at practice.  We have practice tonight, tomorrow & Thursday this week.  I'm pretty excited for our show as it's something new for us.

Next week, Dad, the kids & I head to Vegas for the reunion.  I'm SO excited.  Excited to just be with the family.  Most of all, i'm excited to spend Mothers Day with them...it means ALOT that I can be with them since I can't be with you.

Well, I just wanted to come by & leave a little something since you were on my mind.  I love you so very much.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Dear Mom,

I miss you.  I wish you were here so that I could talk to you.

We've been practicing hard for Mai Kahiki Mai the past few weeks & tonight we were told that we were dancing our auana songs from Ia Oe.  And then we had to go over them.  The last time I danced this song....was so very special to me, something i'll take with me for the rest of my life.  Waiting back stage before going on & then being the last one on stage & looking over at you before we got started & then crying at the very end...

I'll never forget this moment...



I love you.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Hi Mama!

Anything exciting today? Not much here. Ry didn't sleep well last night & I think that she has allergies, because she's all stuffed up & runny at the same time. I skipped the workout today & decided that i'd use the day to be domestic. I already ran to Costco & cleaned the kitchen, now i just have to do some laundry & tackle my decorations for Mai Kahiki Mai.

Everything is coming together well. I'm getting excited!!

Halau has quite a few things coming up on our agenda & i think Kapua & I are handling everything quite well so far. There's a few things here & there that we forget about, but it always works out.

Yesterday we celebrated Wailana's 2nd birthday at Pump It Up. It was CRAZY crowded, but so much fun. My hula sisters & I went down the slide for you...since we knew that you would go if you were here.

I miss you & love you...

**Taken June 2007 at Ke'ola's birthday party at Pump It Up**

The following photos are from yesterday, April 18, 2010 at Pump It Up...

**Kapua & RyRy**

**Okekai, Kapua & Me**

**Aloha, Tish & Puamohala**

**Jess, Kapua & Nunu**

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Hi Mama,

How are you today? Even though I knew today would be a sad day without you here, I tried to get through it without any tears. But then Gram called to sing to me & I cried. Which sounds funny, because we all know that she sings in her famous key of R & the fact that it made me cry sounds funny. But I was just missing you is all & to have any call from back home lately makes me miss you...it's like my only real connection to you & I sometimes feel like if I don't talk to Gram or Auntie or Candice...that I'll lose them forever because you're no longer here.

I know...it's silly.

Anyway, today I woke up, took Nunu to school, then went to the gym. I KNOW...ON MY BIRTHDAY!! LOL After that, Ry & I went to Target to get something cute to wear & to get Kapua's cards, then I was home for the rest of the afternoon until Marcel woke up. On Tuesday, he went to get me the Coach purse that I wanted, but didn't want me to transfer my stuff over until I saw this other purse that he thought was nicer. So today, he took me back to the store to look at it & it was nicer, so I exchanged it. It's really nice!! Then this evening, we made dinner plans at BJ's Brewery at Tacoma Mall. The reservation was for FIFTY people....isn't that nuts!? And we ended up with 47!! It was a GREAT night with all the people that we love to be with....all of them except for you.

I miss you so much today & everyday...

April 15, 2010 - Kapua & My birthday dinner!!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Hi Mama,

Anything new lately?? Nothing for me really. Well...actually, it seems like everything is kind of different...so new to me. We had our first show last week, the first since Ia Oe....it went well. We also did well for our vendor table. Quite a few people came up to me & gave their condolences, a few people expressed that they missed you. A few people kept asking if we were ok & if we were ready to get back on that stage....don't really care for those types of questions, because I don't really want to be sad, but it makes me sad to think about how different things are now without you here. But like you always said...holomua...and we try our best to.

The crying doesn't come as often, but I don't feel like that is a way to define how much I miss you. The tears come when I just wish for you to be with me at that particular time or moment or when I know that you would've enjoyed yourself where ever I may be. I know you're there...but I wish for your physical presence more than anything.

Earlier this week I had a dream about you. It was almost as if I was granted that 2nd time to be with you. However, you were having a hard time breathing & I kept telling you that I couldn't go through it all a 2nd time. I woke up before anything could happen again.

The past 2 nights a bunch of us have been hanging out at halau watching Merrie Monarch online & then put up on the wall by the projector. It's GREAT!! We brought our blankets & pillows & food & just camp out for the night. Tonight is the last night & I'm looking forward to hearing all the music!!

Well, i hope that you are wonderful & that you miss me as much as I miss you. I love you...

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Dear Mama,

Happy Easter!! :) Did you host an Easter egg hunt today? I'm sure that you did. We had a small one at halau today, but not as big as you used to do. It's been such a crazy & hectic week for all of us. Yesterday was our first show since Ia Oe.....since you've been gone. It was hard. But we did good. There's some video, but I don't know how to get it off of Facebook. (boo)

There was some dressing room fiasco & we weren't able to get in to a room 2 hours prior as we usually do, so we ended up dressing in the hallway. Which is no biggie to us. LOL We got ready & just before we went on, Uncle said pule & a few tears were shed. Of course we wiped our faces, put our game faces on & went out there & killed it. It was a great show for our first time back in the public. We also did well at our vendor table. We forgot a few things here & there, but we're learning & i definitely am appreciative of all that you did for us....now that I see first hand all the little things that are needed when we do ANYTHING. :)

After we were done, we cleaned up our area, cleaned up our vendor area & we went to Emerald Queen for dinner. About 23 of us. It was ono. I honestly never thought that i'd go back to that casino since you're no longer here.

I just want you to know that I missed you so much last night. And I hope that you are proud. I love you & miss you more than anything...